Oh my god, I met someone. I actually met someone. Right when I'd completely given up hope of really meeting anyone here anytime soon, the most beautiful man just popped into my life and I haven't been able to hide my smile all day. Someone pinch me.

Iron and Wine was beautiful. My first concert shots came out really amazing too.

My life is too confusing

I've abandoned livejournal for Tumblr. It suits me better.

www.bayonica.tumblr.com


get one and addzies me. Oh yeah tomorrows my last day in Japan. Tear Tear.

I finally got my acceptance to UMBC. I'm finally leaving. I finally won't be across the world from everyone. I'll finally be own my own. It's like I'm at the light at the end of the tunnel. I've finally made it. I'm so happy.

Need a place to stay in Maryland about the first week of August while my parents go to Disney. I'll be there for about a month before school starts.

My life has become playing the guitar. Instruments are so therapeutic and I can feel myself getting so much better..

Haven't felt this happy and optimistic since like Summer. Gosh yall things are going great.

I need to study abroad in england for a semester or a year. It just needs to happen. It needs to be done.

Know any great breakup songs I can listen to? Guess I'm single again.

If you haven't seen watchmen yet, you should. But read the book first. The movie did the book so much justice. Stuck to it perfectly and everything was casted perfectly. God I loved it so much. Anyways going along with this watchmen theme, my hew hair cut in inspired by the Silk Spectre II. Looooove it! I forget about LJ nowadays. But it's my spring break and I'm happy. That is all for now.

Yall should check out my new blogggggg

I'm not much of an LJ updater these days. But I was looking back at my old live journal and some of it made me laugh. Profound at times. But pretty naive as well. I feel like i've changed a lot since then. I feel like I barely remember anything from my Junior year. Except maybe like the few months before I left. I really just miss my friends. I feel like I'm growing apart from them.

I guess that's all I really have to say.

damn...
I'm so uninspired and out of touch.

I have the most amazing classes this semester. I love my government class and professor. He said I'm the brightest, sharpest younger student he's ever had. I think I may have found my niche and that niche is politics!

Kenny might be coming to stay in japan with me for my last month!!!!!!
SO HAPPY!!!!!!

5 months left of living in japan!

Back to a daily routine:
wake about 9
grab some reading material
drink my coffee
read for about 2 hours
watch something of interest
talk on the phone
go back to reading
play music
go for a drive or walk
visit the library
watch angel
read till if all asleep

For the first time in my life I'm totally content with as little human interaction as possible. I rarely interact with my parents. The only calls I receive are from Kenny. Since my visit we've been so much closer and everything feels so right. It's rare for me to get on the computer nowadays. I don't call people or even message them for that matter. I enjoy staying in my cluttered room at a minimum of 20 hours a day. Agoraphobia? Nawh. But lately i have an obsession with going out and looking mysterious. That's only if i get the urge to leave. I want people to question me when they see me walk by. It sounds stupid writing out. I can't explain it really. Maybe i've just become a little too obsessed with the concept of vampires and everything supernatural. I wish that somehow, someway it could be true, and that one day I would be able to say I whole heartedly believed it. Maybe it all just boils down to that i've been in my own fantasy land lately. But, my me time isn't unhealthy in my eyes. I don't think i've ever been happier with just having me around. A book in my grasp and blanket to keep warm. I'm proud to say i've taken self love to a whole new level. But my parents are concerned. When they asked I just told them that "everyone here is stupid". They think I'm too negative. But I'm right.

Anyways class starts back up on Monday and it's totally going to ruin my no human interaction streak. Guh, i'm not looking forward to school in the slightest bit. i really have to buckle down this semester. I hate that once things start rolling, they don't stop. Once i start classes i have to get back to work on my portfolio, then I have to start applying to transfer, then i have to start planning my move back. Guh, moving into the college life is going to be so shittious for me. I have to transport everything back from a different country. Meanwhile if I need familial support i have to call across the globe to get it. Closest relatives in NY, the McInnis family all the way in OH. Sigh. Thankfully i'm pretty independent.

Okay long rant ended.
Back to my books and coffee.

I'm home and at a total loss for my future. Time to soul search for the next 3 weeks and talk to people and formulate a new plan.

Kemmy gave me the complete series of Angel for christmas.Now im just sitting enjoying it. On my plane ride back i read watchmen. It was amazing. The movie is going to be like mindblowingly incredible. I can't wait for it. I wish i was still in Ohio.

I love christmas music and I love the cold feeling in the air. I like cuddling up in my blanket. I like dancing in my house, stretching, and my pumpkin coffee. I'm pretty content with the fact that i don't get out of my house much. I've become more home oriented. I just turned in my audition form for UMBC. 16 Days till I leave. Nothing exciting to tell because basically I'm pretty friggen boring. I've started to think of more new years resolutions.

Like:
Grow a new interest for cooking
Read more
Get money
Get healthier
See as much of Japan as possible before I leave
Be more spontaneous
Give up soda
Write songs
Become better at interior decorating
Find a huuuge futon
Get into college
Stop dying my hair and get it back to long and luscious

blah blah blah
yadda yadda yadda

zi end.

My boobs have been looking really great.
I'm just saying.